The truth is, I’m still a crazed lunatic. I feel like there aren’t enough hours in a day, and I’m ridden with mom guilt (although I’m accepting that it never goes away). I don’t feel 100% like myself yet, but I think instead of getting back to who I was I’m becoming someone new. Life shapes us as we grow, so I’m accepting that this is the season of our lives at it’s current state. And it’s beautiful and I love it, and even though I feel like my head is spinning in a million different directions, I like this new mom-ified version of myself. Sure, she could really use a manicure, but that’s in the works.
Here’s how I’m maintaining my sanity:
I just accept it. I accept that I’m not perfect. I accept that my house won’t be 100% clean all of the time. I accept that I may be a crappy friend and forget a phone call/text/birthday/etc, but I’m QUICK to apologize for it. I can’t tell you how many friends have sent me texts in the middle of my work day and I read them but get caught up in something and completely forget to respond. When I do respond, I immediately apologize and ask how they are doing/how things are/etc. to show that I DO care about them (because I really do!), its just that I occasionally lose my mind. 🙂
I hired someone to clean for me. I know this is $$$ and truthfully I can’t afford it as much as I would like, but even having her come once a month is helpful. I have no time to scrub my floors because my child has been boycotting his longer naps lately, so it was amazing to NOT have to worry about this. And honestly, I would be willing to work a couple hours on the weekend while my husband watches Landon just so I can pay for her to clean. We are good about wiping surfaces down with disinfectant wipes and vacuuming the tumbleweeds of dog hair that are infesting our home, but having someone do a deep clean was a huge help. For when I can’t afford this luxury, I created a chore chart (I know, but it works!) that I’ll be implementing soon, more as a reminder to both of us of things that need to get done. It’s also much more cost effective!!
I’m utilizing an online grocery service. Our local Stop & Shop here in CT offers Peapod, an online delivery service. I can shop online and have it delivered when I want for a minimal fee (seriously less than $5 if I choose a value day). They are really wonderful, the produce is great (no ugly/bruised/weird things growing), and it’s SO. FREAKING. EASY. They also have really great organic products, and while it’s not a Trader Joe’s (my fave), it works for now. It’s saving me at least an hour of my day that I can now devote to Landon/the husband/myself.
I’m doing at-home workouts. I’m trying out Barre 3 (more to come on this later) and taking advantage of Blogilates and yoga on YouTube. The Tone It Up girls also have some great workouts. It’s definitely not the same as CrossFit, but I seriously can’t find the time to catch a class at a reasonable hour. I’ve debated hitting up the 5am but that means I’m waking up at 4am to pump. The noon and 3:30pm are my faves because they’re practically empty but thats smack in the middle of my already random work day. And I just have no patience for the massive classes at 5:30 and 6:30pm. Maybe I’ll get over that soon, but right now I just can’t deal. So CrossFit is on hold for a bit until I can figure out how to make it work. That being said, the at-home workouts I listed above are great because I can do them in the privacy of my own home around my time. I can also go for a run around the block with my jogging stroller if I feel the need to, although it’s now getting a little chilly for that. I’m also trying to convince my husband to buy a treadmill off Craigslist, but that’s obviously going to cost us some cash.
Now, for things I’m still working on:
Finding some “me” time, and also finding “us” time for me and my husband. I have yet to have anyone other than the girls who babysit Landon while I’m working watch him for a date night out. I feel incredibly guilty about having him be with so many different people, but I know I need to work through that. Or maybe bribe my mom to babysit for me occasionally.
I’m not sure how helpful this was, but hopefully someone got something out of it! Do you have any tips of your own? I’d love to hear them…anything to make this transition a little easier! 🙂